Pretty much from the moment I got home form Georgia, I knew It I’d be back with matthew the first opportunity I had. Matthew had just got a summer co op in North carolina and moved there in May and as soon as i knew it was okay for me to go, I booked my plane ticket. I leave on June 16 and I am so excited!
Being in a long distance relationship is not easy, that is for sure. It takes a lot of patience and trust on both sides to make it work. communication is key. Skype, Instant messaging and texting is important in insuring you know someone, especial if you met them online. Meet him felt right, because i had known him so long. If i had met him when i first met him, I would have been so much more scared. When i first saw him it felt like I had been with him forever. It was easy.
I have been so blessed with Matthew, He’s supportive and he understands me. We share the same out look on a lot of things and I am so excited that a situation so shitty in life brought me Matthew and all the special things that go along with him. For me our Long distance relationship has worked out perfectly. I get to know the future on top of having enough time to myself to worry about whats going on in school with minimal distractions. however I am not going to lie, There have been nights where I’ve stayed up all night worrying, Wondering if this is what I want forever, and Wishing I had more time with him. My relationship takes my feelings, throws them into a big pot and swirls them around.
I’ve had to go through the awkward telling my mom about him. She didn’t believe me at first and thought I was making him up. And I had to go through the even awkwarder meeting his mom and attempting to get her to like me. I know I have a lot of obstacles a head of me but Im ready to tackle them with Matthew by my side.
I also know Eventually it will come to that day when I need to move and I’m not looking forward to saying goodbye to my friends and family yet again for a more permeant time length but for matthew I’d do anything, and thats what being in love is all about, Sacrifices, and compromises to make any relationship work. I will never resent him for the decision though because I took the time, and i made it on my own. I was not forced by him to move, and I thought about the option of staying. I know in the long run it will be easier for me to move to him and I’ll be a lot happier getting away from the 15 months of winter.
Am i ready to get up and leave forever right now, Probably not, I’d rather have my foot in the door of my career before attempting to hold open two. But I know no matter what, Matthew will be there with open arms when I’m done and that’s why i love him so much. He’s my rock, My life and My best friend and without him I don’t know what I’d do anymore. It’s been almost 2 years of knowing him and I’ve changed so much. My life has moulded into his and I’ve become a better person because of it. People always say to me I must be rushing into it and we’re to young to know what we want and we won’t last. but I’ve told Matthew more about me than I’ve ever told anyone. He’s the one person I look forward to talking to all day and he keeps me going when life gets hard.
I love his little snarky comments on everything I say and the way he holds my hand for the sake of wanted to feel me near. He’s the only one I can imagine waking up next to in 30 years and he’s the only person I’ve ever loved at this deep of level.
I leave on Saturday to go see him. I will try my best to be patient through the 7 hours of travel a head of me because I know when I’m done, I’l get to run into the arms of the man I’ll some day call husband and life will fall back into place.